It’s times like this where I wish I could explain myself to you, but I can’t. It’s times like this where I wish you could understand where I’m coming from, but you don’t. It’s times like this where I wish this could get easier in my life, but it doesn’t. It’s times like this where I wish I could hide it from the world, but that’s impossible. It’s times like this where I wish I could rewind time and fix things, but time can’t be fixed.
I n e e d t o f o r g i v e a n d f o r g e t …
Mr. Hyunh’s story
“Many years ago i lived in another country, far away. I was a young man with a family, a beautiful baby girl. I call her Mai. I was the luckiest man in the world. At night I used to dream about our future together, to watch Mai grow up and go to school. To see her be happy. But there was trouble in my country. There was a war in the north, and every day the fighting was coming closer and closer. I knew that this would not be a good place for my child to grow up. I could not keep her safe, maybe not even have enough food for her to eat. So I decided we must try to get out. We must try to find a better life. Everyone was trying to get out. Everywhere there was confusion. Somehow, I got through. The only way out of the city was by helicopter. There were too many people. I begged the soliders, Please! Please take us! Help us find a new life! But he could not. He said there was only room for one of us. Then, I had to make the most difficult decision of my life. I knew I had to do the best thing for Mai. I knew that if I gave Mai to the soldiers, they would take care of her. They would find a home for her. And then as soon as I could, I would get out of the country and find her again. As the helicopter left, the soldier called out the name of a city. This city. He said he would bring her here. It took me twenty years until I could finally get out of the country. That’s why I came to this city. I believe she is here somewhere but I have not been able to find her. Sometimes it is so difficult that I almost give up hope. But I never stop thinking about her. I will never stop trying. I would do anything to see her again. To know that she is happy.”Remember back when Nickelodeon could make you cry?
What happened to those days?
From now on I’m going to post daily blogs, it might not be on tumblr though.. I’ve been writing in my notes but it’s okay, I’ll fry to do both.
We’re not perfect. We fight, argue, disagree sometimes. I know that every single time we fight, we both feel like we’re going to lose each other. The only reason why we get so aggravated is because we don’t want to see each other go… I know I can never tell you what’s wrong with me. It’s not that I can’t, to me it feels like I’m just afraid to tell you whatever I’m feeling because you might just walk away. I shouldn’t be afraid though, you’re my lover, my best friend, my other half, more importantly, my husband. I should be able to tell you anything, and trust me, I’m working on it. I really am. Right now, as of November 19, 2011, I feel like our most recent fight just made us more closer than ever. I’ve honestly never been so happy and I’m happy to say it’s almost our 5 month anniversary! Everyone that knows of us, thinks we’ve been together for years. It makes it feel so great to know other people notice how much love has been there but it’s only been a few months. Imagine if we did go out from the beginning? Officially it’s only been a few months but babe, it’s been three almost four years since we met and I’m so glad that all the shit that happened between us got us finally together. <3 I wouldn’t want anybody else but you Mr. Suthpha Muth. I love you! xoxo - Wifey.
